W@nder

vague, but true.

i started this blog a long time ago, but I unfortunately deleted my posts. I thought I was a stupid kid, but then I realized that's just who I am. Granted, I've grown up quite a bit, I'll give myself credit there. Maybe not in the best direction, but this is the path I'm on for the moment. Until I find a pleasing detour, I plan to stick with it. I wish I would have stuck with this before, but it's just not something to fret about. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. Sounds cliché, but it's the only thing that gets me through the troughs in the ups and downs of my life. I believe there has to be something else out there. I have to. We are much too insignificant to think otherwise. I'm not exactly sure what that thing might be, but in my darkest hours, it makes me feel less alone. I had an in-depth conversation with someone that I never thought I would and I've been impacted ever since I think. but that's a completely different novel, one which I'd prefer not to open currently. But he did inspire me to do this. Then again, I'm as malleable as play-dough sometimes. I think it's because I'm on this constant search to make me happy. I am constantly looking for myself. I actually think, on some level I already know. I also think that all the levels around it are trying to keep it from escaping.

But this is where I'm leaving you, for the moment. I need to write in Spanish for a while and study for a major test as well. I know I'll be writing again; too many thoughts, so little of them dealing with what I need them to be about. So, until a few hours from now, keep doing what you need. Do me a favor and do something for you. It makes my job easier.